motherhood

Motherhood is sacred. I know that. This isn't the first time I've become a mother. But I think it is because I have older children that I can kinda see where this whole motherhood thing is going. It seems like I'm taking a little more time to enjoy this precious new life than I have either of the others. Maybe I'm just getting old. Or maybe with age comes understanding and with that understanding comes different choices. I understand a lot better now that the Lord's really in charge. I've known that all my life, this really hasn't changed, but its like each new life lesson reaffirms it in new ways. I also understand that my body is a lot more precious than I had previously realized and requires a more careful assessment of how I treat it. Garbage in Garbage out - its really true. I had my newest little one without the use of pain drugs. Maybe this is why my motherhood feels different. I have a friend that shared with me that she feels in order to bring a new life here, we must pass close to the veil and pick that precious one up. She thinks it is why our body is so uncomfortable when we are in the transition and final stages of labor. Perhaps that is why my motherhood feels so much more. Not more of any one thing, just more. And most of all I feel more love from the Lord.